Surrendering in Infinite Trust
"True teaching is not an accumulation of knowledge; it is an awakening of consciousness which goes through successive stages." Egyptian Proverb
Some days I must surrender every thought I have over to my higher power. Sometimes the unfair stain of my life experiences leave me bitter and angry as well as grateful and fully aware of the miracles that have transformed the thing that I call my life. Yes, the past is the past, but it created who I am in my now and that creates my future. To be in a state of eternal surrender is unnatural, but in my new habitat, I must learn to glide in the flow of life instead of resist the energetic currents that are leading me further along my path.
The only thing I can do is surrender. For me, because of my internal hard-wiring, I feel that surrendering is an incredibly weak minded thing to do. In reality though, it is the most courageous thing I can do as a human being living on planet earth. I must trust and I must do my part in the symbiotic relationship of letting go and letting GOD orchestrate the flow of energy in my life.
Addiction, abuse, struggle, hardship, illness, loss, pain, and emotional suffering are all teachers that, with time, expose the true nature of their presence. Until the whole picture is presented, I must learn to appreciate each experience for what it is, either a lesson or a blessing. It is up to me how I proceed. I constantly have to ask myself, "Am I going to resonate with love and acceptance or resistance and fear?"
These words from Paramahansa Yogananda help me and I am going to share them with you.
"With infinite concentration and devotion pour your consciousness through the spiritual eye into Infinitude. Release your soul from the imprisonment of the body and into the vast ocean of spirit."
And that my friends, is how I am learning to let go of that which I cannot control. It is not easy and requires a great deal of awareness, but the alternative is worse than the pain of change. And, I am learning that surrendering to the unknown can be quite a thrill if I remember to detach from that which is holding me back.