"We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give." ~Winston Churchill
Sometimes, when I help others my wounds may break open again and again. But, each time I feel, or experience what the person I am helping is going through it alleviates the burden of my pain on deeper levels and provides me with an opportunity to find more compassion for the parts of me that need more time to heal.
Some days I emotionally bleed, some days I sob with sadness, but most days I breathe in the complexities of gratitude, love, and acceptance of what has become of my life. I am all that I am and that is a sober, single mom, writer and advocate who is fully dedicated to my girls, my recovery, my peace of mind, and the woman that has been birthed because of all the above.
Many people don't understand why I keep sharing so much on a topic that makes most squirm with an intense shudder of disbelief. Many shy away from my words because they feel uncomfortable brushing against the sharp and vile truth of dirty little secrets. I know many blindly scroll over the content in which I write about, but I don't write for the approval of many, I write to reach those who suffer in silence with an unbearable pain that many can never comprehend until the secrets touches some aspect of your life.
I wish none of this was real. I wish it would all disappear and all children would be spared the horrors of pedophilia, but pretending it doesn't exist does NOT make it go away! Bringing childhood sexual abuse into the light of awareness helps children protect themselves in knowing that they can reach out for help if they are being harmed. Knowledge gives them power in combating advances from sexual predators, immoral family members, unsafe parents who intend harm, and any member of the community who may have nasty intentions.
I am directly speaking to the millions of children and wounded adults who are part of a group they never asked to join. I speak to all the souls who have had dreams stolen, innocence shattered, and self-esteem corrupted. I speak to all who desire to find peace, move on, embrace self-love, and take back their lives by ending the shame of suffering in silence.
I LOVE helping others by doing what I promised myself I would do when my abuser was arrested-SPEAK, WRITE, AND SHARE MY TRUTH! After years of being silenced, intimidated and fearful, I will never be silent again.
"The heart that gives, gathers." ~Tao Te Ching
I GIVE MY HEART, MY VOICE, AND MY TIME TO EVERY SURVIVOR, THRIVER AND ANY SOUL WHO MAY STILL HAVE A SECRET INSIDE THEY DESIRE TO SHARE.