Sobriety is My Miracle
"Don't look for miracles. You yourself are the miracle." ~Henry Miller
"I have to keep talking about my sobriety, my truth, and my journey. Very few move past the brokenness and into the healing process. My life is full of miracles today because I found the 12-Steps to a better life. It all began with choosing to surrender to a sober life." ~ME
I've squeezed through the barbed wire gates of hell and come out the other side with scars of victory over darkness. I fought, day and night, to move past anger, rage, depression and addiction. I then surrendered to the truth and accepted the reality of what my life had become. I stumbled over the unrealistic fantasy of what I wanted life to be and fell into rock bottom. What I experienced next was my first miracle. I asked for the power that held the stars in the sky to take away my desire to drink. My new beginning was in that moment of pure vulnerability and surrender. I rose from the ashes and embraced sobriety.
I am not so anonymous that my miracle can't be found by those who need to hear my truth. I devote my time to writing and my writing to those who have lost their innocence and found addiction. I share my experience, strength and hope with others so that they too may be willing to move forward, lift up those who suffer, and stand up for the ones who have yet to find their way.
I have no more shame in telling my truth for all to hear so that good may come from my experiences. I don't move with the crowd, nor do I find safety in being PC, aka politically correct. See, where I come from there is no correct way to digest the horrors of childhood sexual abuse, addiction, trauma, and the myriad of soul sickness that comes from such adverse life experiences. The lies, denial, shaming, and deadly secrets are the exact opposite of the creed I created for my recovery and the sharing of my message.
"I refuse to lower my standards to accommodate those who refuse to raise theirs." ~Steve Gamlin
I stand strong and I stand firm in who I have become as a woman in recovery. Please don't discredit me, label me, tell me who I should be or what I should say. Please don't finish my sentences, tell me how to feel, or gaze upon me with pity. Strong is not a choice, it is how I was made. I don't back down from sharing the truth because my soul fracture is the miracle that serves as a portal into a world that few dare to enter. I won't compromise what has given me the opportunity to fully embrace who I AM!
I AM a woman who puts GOD into my jar of sobriety as this grants me a daily reprieve from my addiction. My life is full of passion as I speak openly to those who desire to change their life too. I never get tired of seeing the flicker of hope ignite into a burning flame of dedication as many who hear my testimony say out loud, "Maybe I can do this too." Honesty always delivers miracles-Always!
"It is my responsibly to carry the message of hope to all who are open to hearing the message. What this looks like differs from day-to-day, but one thing remains constant and that is the miracle of the 12-Steps." ~ME