I Can Fly
"Leap and the net will appear." ~John Burroughs
Innocent children at play embrace vulnerability and claim their power by boldly shouting "I can fly!" With fully activated Super Powers, they leap off furniture, jet away from siblings, and create never-ending scenarios of how their strength has saved the world from mortal doom and destruction. No adult, in their right mind, would dare to burst the bubble of imagination while these Galactic Masters are in the midst of such an emotional victory.
Needless to say, the adults in my childhood did burst my bubble of imagination, but I have re-claimed my Divine Feminine Super Powers! With a rush of courage, I valiantly stretch my wings, trust in what I cannot see, and leap off the cliff of self-sabotage and self-doubt. I feel free as the air rushes under, and through, my wings. I gently tumble into the soft net of letting go. It is here, in the space of uncertainty, that I completely accept what it feels like to be me-imperfect me!
There are two parts to the totality of being me:
Part of me-is quirky, random, skittish, chronically over-thinks almost everything, entertains anger, gives fear to much space, and drowns in impatience. I also have my very own kaleidoscope of character defects. I have equal parts of woman and girl competing for the same mortal space. Mix in the inner struggles of anxiety and a complex case of PTSD and you have a mere mortal.
The other part of me-is the Immortal Winged Goddess that has the capabilities to leap high and far into distant galaxies. In this space, I have learned how to love deeply (myself and others) be emphatic, generous, passionate, joyful, courageous, honest, vulnerable, sexy, womanly, creative, capable, bold, and flexible to the many different aspects of life.
When I learned to blend both parts of myself with love, tolerance, acceptance and patience, I realized that I am a whole, soulful being. Perhaps I can fly after all?
Many leaps of faith have been taken to bring me back to the heart of my own desire, which is to be free of my reckless fallen shadow self. When I feel uncertain, timid or overly fearful of where I may land, I must remember that imagination and visualization can be more important than rigidly staying the course to a known destination.
"Our whole spiritual transformation brings us to the point where we realize that in our own being, we are enough." ~ Ram Dass